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3 days ago I stared to build my blog on WordPress. I could not wait to have the basic structure done so I could publish my first post and open the possibility of connecting with others in the way that I am currently missing. Well, I finished that basic layout and structure about 7 hours ago. I have never hesitated to speak my mind and thoughts so I am perplexed by my current delay. After all isn’t having an audience of this size this whole point of having a blog?
I live in Waxahachie, a small town in Texas. Old, small – minded values are still very much at the heart of this community. That is not to say that every member of the community is narrow minded but instead to say that the narrow minded are definitely visible. This is direct opposition to me living openly gay. Now, to make things even more complex I am a right winged gay republican. So, just to review that pretty much makes me too gay to be staight and too staight to be gay. (I tend to fall in the gaps a lot in life)
So being in this small, southern town I am isolated and have been looking for an outlet. This is how I ended up here. And yet for sp.e reason I am hesitant. Why? I have made a promise to myself that I will write honestly and truthfully, and not delete posts once they are published. That means really really exposing myself. But, at the same time it means really really opening myself up to connect with others in similar situations.
My current social situation is compounded by the fact that I am bi-polar and struggling with complications from gastric bypass. I want to write about my experiences and tell my story so that it can raise awareness of things like human rights, mental illness and health, and the current state of health care in our country. I realize that it will only be through education and understanding that the social mindset will begin to change. Still, it is very intimidating to open myself up when for so long I have been prohibited from
exactly that.
I come into this with only the desire to have a chance to be open and honest about who I am and what I believe. I would love it if I were able to find others who are like minded or share the sender views. More than anything I just need to be reminded that the world is so much bigger than this small town.
A Tattered Mind 
Thank you so much for the wonderful encouragement! I am planning on posting tonight. I’ve just been so sick this week 8 haven’t been up more than an hour or so at a time and that has been used to care for father who has Lewy Body Demintia.
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I’ll be following and supporting you along the way! I know how it is being the new kid on the block. God has you in his heart!
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I think that blogging becomes easier and more natural if you follow the idea behind the saying “dance as if no one is watching”. I know I am drawn to blogs whose authors’ share intimate and vulnerable insight into their lives and don’t seem to worry about who is reading/following them. So “write as if no one is reading” and I’m sure you’ll connect to an audience who will appreciate your views and words.
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Thanks for the encouragement! It seems so minor but even looking at the ‘stats’ page and seeing that 13 people have looked at my posts is a comfort. It helps realize that there is a world beyond do the confines of my current community.
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Welcome. You’ll find it takes time to get anyone to read your posts. You need to read other people’s posts in order to get them to read yours, to get started. You’ll find like-minded people, like me, and people who disagree with you, but are open to a good debate. Yes, the world is bigger than your town! Good luck!
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